Happy World cancer day to all. How sad is it that a day has been created for such an awful disease because it has effected so many lives? I am glad someone thought of creating a day to celebrate cancer, since most with cancer or who have been effected by Cancer never want to celebrate the disease.
I am grateful to have another cancer day on this earth, without cancer. Though I wish I was not so familiar with cancer that I knew that there is such a thing as world cancer day. Some times I just wish I was back in my own naive world of knowing little to nothing about cancer.
I am now so familiar with cancer that I can't seem to just feel normal. Anytime anything is a little off in my life I worry, "oh no, is cancer back?" For example yesterday I had some tingling in my toes. Usually I would say it is because I started working out again, but there is still part of me that questions my simple rational. Or a couple weeks ago, I missed the cupboard door by a long shot when I went to shut it. At first I thought, oh I am just so clumsy, then I remembered how clumsy I was before my stroke and worried about cancer again.
My cancer is a tricky little bugger in my head (literally and figuratively) because I have always been clumsy, but now my clumsy is a sign of concern. That sucks. Sure, words cannot express how happy I am cancer is gone, but the fear of the "if it comes back" haunts me.
World cancer day is a day to celebrate life that cancer has changed and remember those whom cancer has taken too soon. I pray that cancer can be extinguished, but until then I pray that all those who are touched by cancer can remember that life is short to allow cancer to control us.
I heard the bible verse Matthew 6:34 today that says: "Take therefore no thought for the morrow: for the morrow shall take thought for the things of itself. Sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof." No matter what ones religious take is, we all should remember that no one is guaranteed tomorrow, with or without cancer, so why think and worry about tomorrow?
I have made an effort to stop being such a worry wart and I want you all to do the same!
Happy world cancer day today...and here's to a happy every day!
XOXOXO
